Great news today - the PET came back clean.

I should be happier but I still have 3 treatments to finish the program and they're supposed to be tougher (worse side effects) than the first four treatments. Plus this next round is 1 day outpatient followed by 3 days in the hospital. A day before the outpatient I have to come in and have my WBC count done, and two days after I leave the hospital I have to come back for a shot. So these next 3 are going to be a giant pain in the ass.

Seems like a good time to write a blog post. Just got rear ended on the fdr. No damage. Driving in with Aunt Geri and Mom. Not having much fun. Getting ganged up on about being in public places when I should be avoiding people.

Atleast now they can freak out about the guy who rear ended us and leave me alone.

Didn't do much after the PET yesterday. I did take 15mg of Valium in the morning for the claustrophobia of the PET.

I'd been wanting to go down to xfit to get my body analysis done by the inbody machine so I did that at like 5pm. Met Smulis for a drink after. Big thanks to her and J.

My mom just got a text about her friends house burning down. The bumper doesn't seem so important anymore.

That's kind of how I feel about everything these days. Rear-ended? Oh well, not the end of the world. Someone spill something on me? Oh well.( I do wish that ketchup mark would come out of my shoe though.)

I made a stop off at the shop in Montclair before going to Hoboken. Left to go to the ATM and when I got back there was some crazy old dude and a bunch of kids in the shop. When the kids left the crazy guys like "why's everyone so serious," then he turns to me and goes "look at you, smiling, why's everyone else so miserable?" He was so crazy he was amusing. But I'm all about what he was saying. I've probably said it a million times already on here but seriously, "don't worry, be happy".

So after seeing the Smule I met Andrew to get my Dad recycling bin back. I had Apple TV sent to my dads office and needed a bargaining chip to get it from him. He turned out to be asleep so I was just able to take it.

Ate leftovers from this weekend for dinner and then went back to moms. Was really tired so I went to bed before 11.

Was up all night with my allergies going nuts and had to get up early today. I'll probably take a nice nap while I'm getting the Rituxan... well, after I get the Benadryl I mean.

Much better experience at MSK than at Englewood

Got here at 6:45 today.
They've already injected the radio-isotope for the PET scan and now I'm drinking this garbage.

My last scan didn't go so well so I got Valium for today. Took one already, a few more sips of this and I think I'll be ready for another.

Yuck

Had to make one more post bc I'm so pissed off right now.

I just logged into mr patient portal to see where I'm going tomorrow and I see they scheduled me for a Rituxan drip on Thursday. As of yesterday they didn't know when they were going to do it bc they didn't have a room for me, but I guess space opened up.

I've been feeling so good for so long now I really don't want any drugs on Thursday.

So now I'm getting drugs for 4 days straight.

FUCK

Spent all day researching a possible side job (food cart) and my step sister, Sam, made me realize that I don't think I'd even buy my product.

I love those places where you make your own salad, well the guy behind the counter does, you just point to the stuff you want on it, but if it were outdoors with bugs landing in the food... yuck.

Theoretically the food is covered and its clean. The produce is refrigerated annd there'd be a sink to clean the mixing bowl. Maybe with really good graphics postered on the cart so you have a positive perception of a healthy, fresh, salad coming from this pushcart it'd work. I don't know.
Any thoughts? I'd really appreciate them

I'm working on a second idea too, but I'm not ready to announce that one yet.

I finally have some savings. Not enough to invest in anything major, but there's got to be something better to do than let it sit in the bank.

Anyways, I went to the city to have dinner and catch up with my step sister. Haven't seen much of her since she moved to the city. We went to a vegan restaurant which I thought was really amusing, how do they make all that stuff?? And the food was really good too. It struck me how professional she looked. Normally when I see her she's vegging out on the couch.

Alright. I have to be up at 5 tomorrow for a PET scan so I'm wrapping this up. Goodnight.

I noticed the last time I went to yoga just how gross my feet are, so I thought I'd do everyone around me in class a favor

Alright, my mouth/tongue are less sensitive today but I think I'll stick to bland foods.

My feet and legs hurt a little less

Yesterday was a 100% rest day. I was on the couch all day sleeping on and off. It didn't occur to me until 10pm when I went to my car that I hadn't been out all day.

Sunday was the throwback BBQ. That's what really sucked the energy out of me. There was so much to do that the chemo brain started coming back.

My heads been pretty clear and my memories been better, but I cant multitask, organize, and produce like I used to in a hectic environment. Work was always a juggling act, it caused a lot of stress, but I could have like 10 projects gping continuously and once one was done there were always projects waiting. Now my head just starts to spin and I get really confused. I don't remember what I'm supposed to do or wear to start.

So trying to host 12 people was way too much. I hope everyone had fun because it wasn't the chance to just chill with my old high school friends that I was hoping for. For me it was hectic and a lot of sork, but the brain haze could have contributed to that. When my head starts to spin everything seems harder. If they had fun though I'm happy because I do get satisfaction and a feeling of success organizing events.