Wow, I don't know about the Ativan and Reglan. I'll try the Reglan alone next time if I get sick like that again.

That's the second time they've given me Ativan. The first time was during my first RCHOP. They also gave me 50mg of Benadryl in my IV that day.

Both times knocked me out for days.

I literally spent yesterday sleeping and blankly staring at the TV.

Everything's kind of hazy but I was definitely up yesterday morning for a little bit. 8ish to 11ish. I was queezy so I took the Zofran/Ativan/Reglan again around 10:30. I slept from 11-2ish. After that I read a few pages in my book, sat outside with buddy, and watched tv. I walked the dog around the block with Mom last night too.

I was really out of it.
I don't think I had more than 3 thoughts all day.

The Neulasta was definitely doing its job. My bones were aching and I was really weak physically. Opening my water bottle was tough every time even though I'd screwed down the lid myself. I couldn't just use my wrist like I should have been able to. The Neulasta is the shot that causes my bone marrow to grow back, creating new blood cells. If I had to guess I'd say my WBC count is really low because I've been taking this shot after all of my treatments and I've never had such strong side effects, but my counts have been coming back high.

I feel better this morning. The nausea and headache are entirely gone but it was a trade off. I pretty much got rid of those feelings by getting rid of all feelings. I'm not sure it was worth it. All of a sudden it's Friday.

I didn't sleep great last night, probably because of all of the sleep I've gotten, but I woke up with brain function so that's good.

I'm finally ready to start my food log again. That's the longest gap in it since I started on 4/5.

I'm going to stop writing now because its taking way too much effort. and time. It's like being brain damaged. I'll have to do brain exercises today, Sodoku or something.

The ICE met all of my expectations. It's Thursday and I'm still tired. The zofran stopped working Tuesday night. I spent hours yesterday feeling really nauseas. It took a while but the pills that they gave me seem to be working, partially by putting me to sleep. I'm hoping today's better, it's 8:45 and I'm awake so that's a good first step. We'll see.

Highlight of my day was mom taking me to Sonic for a strawberry milkshake.

Finally getting out of here. A little over 48 hours after I went in, not horrible I guess. Slept the whole day away, that made things a little easier too. That's one down, two to go.

She came at 8:20 today which was fine because I went to sleep at 8 last night. Well, fell asleep watching a movie. Feeling pretty decent right now, a bit queezy so I took a zofran. I actually slept pretty well. Woke up 3 times from the alarm on my IV and twice for vitals, but I was getting solid sleep cycles in between I think. Just another 9 hours and I'm out of here. Called room service, my yogurt and hard boiled eggs should be up in a little bit. I'm definitely gaining weight. I can see it in my face. Can't wait to go on a bike ride and get some exercise, hope I'm fatigued for too long after this.

Definitely pretty fatigued. Nausea meds are all doing their jobs. On my 24 hour drip now. Need to finish that and then do an hour and a half drip. Biggest problem is waiting for the drugs to get mixed in the labs. I've spent hours sitting here with just waiting.

There's always something to wake you up every hour or two. I fell asleep at 12, at 1 they came and took my vitals. At 2 the alarm on my IV went off because of air in the line. Then if it wasn't my alarm going off it was my roommates. At some point he or the nurse, I don't know, spilled urine on his side of the curtain so there was that wake up, then the janitor came by and woke us up. I got maybe a solid 2 and a half hours of sleep and then they came to draw blood at 8:30ish. At that point I figured it was time to get up and find the coffee.

So far this inpatient thing isn't so bad. I haven't been given any drugs and I just ordered dinner. Vegetable dumplings to start, followed by Broiled Sea Bass with broccoli, asparagus, and squash on the side. Desert is rice pudding.

Feeling pretty good today. No side effects from yesterday's Rituxan. Or if there were I slept them off yesterday afternoon.

Went to yoga this morning to get my head in the right place for today. It was supposed to be a gentle class, Yin Yoga, or atleast it sounded like one. I was sweating within the first five minutes. All those toxins from yesterday coming out maybe.

Came home and made a cauliflower pizza. Still working out some kinks, but I really like it.

Now I'm just relaxing before going into the hospital for the first time. I jave a 4:15 check-in today.

I brought a bunch of books, magazines, and my computer but I'm starting to wonder if I'll feel healthy enough to need any of it.

When I first started R-CHOP I'd bring stuff to pass the time. By the end I just brought my iPad to use in the waiting room because I'd get so messed up from the Benadryl they gave me that I'd either sleep through the treatment or listen to music and veg out. Who knows what they're going to give me today.

Allergies are still bothering me. Not as bad as yesterday but they're not helping things.

Guess that's it for now. Will have plenty more to write about soon I bet.